Hallo my
lovely wondergrounders. I hope you’ve been doing better than I have been.
I’ve been
sick for the last week and that party four days ago didn’t help me get better
either. So I’ve been hiding in my room for the last 4 days, watching Hart of
Dixie and old Gossip Girl episodes, propping myself with medication and
drinking tea. I have got to say I didn’t
mind staying at home, dodging everything and everyone in the outside world.
To be
honest I haven’t been feeling that well in the outside world. That crappy
feeling I get when I miss Wonderland is back, shocker…. I knew I wouldn’t be
able to keep it off for very long but I didn’t expect it to come back so
quickly. However my cold couldn’t have came at a better time, so I turned my
room into my own personal shelter- cozy, warm and safe out of anybody’s sight
and criticism. I haven’t been feeling at home, at school or well... at home. Those
last couple of weeks, I’ve been avoiding that strong urge to pack my bags and
disappear without saying anything to anyone. But of course this isn’t Gossip
Girl and I am no Blair Waldorf and money is an issue. Also, I’m not 18 yet so
there goes my plan. So my crazy escapes are going to have to wait until I’m
18 and I have a job which means 6 months, maybe an year until I can make
everything happen.
Maybe stuff will
start going well for me here, but I’ve lost hope. I’ve been here for almost 4
years and everything is just as crappy as in the beginning, maybe even crappier
…
But for
now, it’s time to go to school tomorrow which means it is time to face the
music. Let’s just hope everything works out before the fat lady gets to sing.
xoxo Minnie