Shelter

Hallo my lovely wondergrounders. I hope you’ve been doing better than I have been.
 

I’ve been sick for the last week and that party four days ago didn’t help me get better either. So I’ve been hiding in my room for the last 4 days, watching Hart of Dixie and old Gossip Girl episodes, propping myself with medication and drinking tea.  I have got to say I didn’t mind staying at home, dodging everything and everyone in the outside world.

To be honest I haven’t been feeling that well in the outside world. That crappy feeling I get when I miss Wonderland is back, shocker…. I knew I wouldn’t be able to keep it off for very long but I didn’t expect it to come back so quickly. However my cold couldn’t have came at a better time, so I turned my room into my own personal shelter- cozy, warm and safe out of anybody’s sight and criticism. I haven’t been feeling at home, at school or well... at home. Those last couple of weeks, I’ve been avoiding that strong urge to pack my bags and disappear without saying anything to anyone. But of course this isn’t Gossip Girl and I am no Blair Waldorf and money is an issue. Also, I’m not 18 yet so there goes my plan. So my crazy escapes are going to have to wait until I’m 18 and I have a job which means 6 months, maybe an year until I can make everything happen.   

Maybe stuff will start going well for me here, but I’ve lost hope. I’ve been here for almost 4 years and everything is just as crappy as in the beginning, maybe even crappier …

But for now, it’s time to go to school tomorrow which means it is time to face the music. Let’s just hope everything works out before the fat lady gets to sing.

xoxo Minnie

Karma

Hallo my little Wondergrounders
I hope you're having a great day or night depending on where you are.
Unfortunately I'm still in Wonderground but I did have a blast last night (if you don't count the Karma-situation) Let me explain...

Have you ever had the feeling you've ever done something wrong and you're getting punished for it? Well, I have it all the time. It keeps happening when it comes to "love". Sorry for the ""s but I don't believe in happily ever after. Like Angelina Jolie said in Mr & Mrs Smith: "Happy endings are for unfinished stories" But let's go back to Karma. The question I keep asking myself is "What have I done?" I honestly have no idea why she is after me constantly. So let me tell you a not that short story about my eternal relationship with dear old Karma.

 Every time something starts happening between me an a guy, that I actually do like for more than 2 weeks (a record for me), something or someone screws it all up, mostly me. No,no just kidding... Well not completely I admit I am the Screw Up Queen. How it all ends doesn't really have anything to do with Karma. It's things like another guy or another girl who wants him ( mostly an crazy ex) or simply the fact that I had to move to Wonderground. But what happens after that, is all her doing. Like the songs what come on on TV and remind me of him... The places I see him, always places he doesn't usually go to, place I thought I could escape from the rush of feeling his eyes give me. You've probably noticed that I'm talking about a particular person, two of them actually one in Wonderland and one here in Wonderground. Let me tell you the Wonderland story first....

Tomorrow :p

xoxo Minnie

Memory dress

You know! It’s that dress that you wore to that party where it happened. Whatever it was, that dress (It doesn’t necessarily have to be a dress, it could be anything.) brings memories back, good or bad or maybe both.  If you are sentimental like me, you can’t possible put that particular dress on without thinking about it.  If you are one of the lucky ones, you have good memories that make you smile and be happy that you had that moment. If you are like me you have them both. That dress, indicates the happiness you felt experiencing it and the heartbreak you had to go through loosing it.

It’s crazy how random items bring back so many memories. You know the feeling.  Like when you remember the first movie you went to see with your first boyfriend and the cinema ticket you still keep somewhere in a box after all these years. When you find that first rose he gave you between the pages of a thick old book. When you put on that friendship bracelet that your best friend gave you, what feels like, ages ago. When you walk past that little coffee shop, where you sat with your friends and exchanged gossip in the good old days. And of course the simplest thing that takes you back to Memory Lane, a simple picture. That's all it takes to get all homesick or old-days-sick, just a simple picture of that moment when you felt perfectly happy. But the saddest thing about a photo is the fact that you can never get that particular moment back.

The only way of forgetting what happened in that dress, or what ever your item is, is to put on/take that dress/item, get out and make new memories with it. That is of course if you want to forget the old ones. And if you don't, just take it out of that dusty box in the addict and allow yourself a sentimental look at the good old days, but don't get carried away because there is nothing worse then letting the past interfere with you future.

xoxo Minnie